wish i was dead~wish i could do herion to take away this enormous pain~wish i could blow my brains out to take out the obsessiveness one thinking of a person,knowing,the surgerys destroyed what i look like,I wish i can drink so much that i wrap my car around a tree~I wish i could take away the terror of looking at myself in the mirror~knowing theres no one to turn to~how can ya,lookn like i do?How can you Speak when you dont want anyone else as low as yourself~The scent of Death is near knowing your totally worthless!Knowing you were nothing to him,That what he said,He told everyone else~That his heart was always totally cold~So Is Mine!
With suicidle thoughts and know one to care enough to listen to the pain ya feel.
feeling like a ghost, walking alone,envying everyone walking hand in hand,jealous over them sayn hon lets go to bed, to where they hold one another as close as they can,some one to do things for...lost not given the chance,wishing to turn back time, wishing the past never happened to of robbed me of a life so many take for granted.days become centurys,never hearing the phone ring,saying i love you babe, or if you were to come close to dying some one saying, im glad your ok.only way to block the pain is to get rid of the thought....of being in love with you. pain lingers, with no solutions just endless pain. post tramatic ripping ya to shreads ,stop the pain...why does my life have to be this way....nothing changes....yet im forgotten or ignored,as if a ghost walking this earth with a shattered heart...im letting go and im doing it for you,to be with some one that can give you the things i cant.im not that selfish to not think of whats best for you,cause my life died many years ago.theres no point going on.no one listens...nor cares... |
